"In the dark times, will there also be singing? Yes, there will be singing about the dark times." - Brecht

Unbeknownst to strangers who heard him sing in videoke, Crooner KR Guda did not have formal training in music, apart from a brief stint as a bass voice singing "Times of Your Life" during high school. Nowadays, he busies himself writing about politics and culture and studying photojournalism. As a journalist covering human rights issues, he is what can aptly be described by that John Berger quote: "Truly we writers are the secretaries of death." (Thanks to newly-sanctioned poet Teo Marasigan for that one)
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They were all over him, the employees, smothering him with hugs, even kisses. They were posing with him for snapshots that perhaps end up in their Friendster accounts. He willingly obliged. I think he's getting used to it, which is not a bad thing. One can only imagine how difficult his life had become since that fateful day when he did not know if he would live or go the way of more than 170 activists missing to date. He was all smiles, and all ears, as students aim their phone cams on him and chat up with him.
He is Jun Lozada, and he looked as every bit relieved as any man who went through what he went through ought to be. Sure, the limelight can take its toll on even the most hardened celebrity. The circles around his eyes are testament to that. But he is relieved nevertheless. At least he lived long enough to be mobbed.
Days before, he went through just that, courtesy of students at the St. Scholastica's College. Nothing as threatening as a pack of screaming colegialas calling your name like you were some artista. He was a rock star. A funny looking, middle-aged man who turned the country on its heels with his knowledge of scandalous government dealings and his wisecracking ways at the Senate.
That afternoon, he was even more jovial. He made the rounds of some universities, with the UP's law building Maclolm Hall as his last stop. With security considerations forcing the speaking engagement to be moved from Quezon Hall to Malcolm (a not-so-ideal place to hold a rally, truth to tell), Lozada spoke to the throng through a balcony. It was a bit comical, even slightly ridiculous, and reminded me of Madonna's Evita Peron singing "Don't Cry for Me Argentina".
But no matter. Whatever he said, the crowd of more than a thousand warmly responded. Lozada gave his now-all-too-familiar speech about the youth being at the forefront of social change. And when time came for the students to ask questions, he was amusingly glib. Repeatedly asked to comment on President Arroyo, Lozada was circumspect, apologizing for it by saying that he did not want to taint his newfound celebrity with partisan politics. Some student, an activist for sure, sought to correct him in his views about politics, saying that what he did in the Senate was by nature "political," and that there's nothing wrong with that. He was all quiet, but a few fellow students responded with faint catcalls. Understandably, they did not want to embarrass their guest. Nevertheless, the grim-and-determined student had a point, and Lozada knew it.
It was mostly fun. Lozada deserves all the support he gets from the students and the public. It is to his credit that the middle class who had been running out of heroes in their ranks have now began to show signs of political life. Good god, it's about time. And though, I don't see those same colegialas rooting this time for new whistleblower Dante Madriaga, we can safely assume that we will be seeing more of the middle class in the days to come.
That frenetic afternoon with Lozada, however, made me think about other things. It made me think about those missing activists who were not as lucky as him. It reminded me of Lourdes "Nanay Ude" Rubrico, an urban poor activist from Cavite who was abducted by state agents while in her sleep about a year ago. She was taken to PAF Field Station Fernando Air Base, Lipa City, Batangas where she was mentally tortured and threatened with physical harm for days. She escaped after eight days. The Court of Appeals has refused to grant her and her family the protection she needs, thus she continues to live in hiding, fearing for her and her children's and grandchildren's lives.
Nanay Ude, is a whistleblower like Lozada. And so are the Manalo brothers. And the others, who amidst tremendous threat to their lives, chose to speak the truth, about the unspeakable brutality that they had seen by their own eyes. They remain largely unknown. They are not celebrities.
I just wish one day, we can celebrate them the way we deservedly celebrate Jun Lozada.
The long, leisurely walk I take every day presents itself as an excellent setting to listen to Dong Abay's songs. Passing by expensive coffee shops littered with nice-smelling people wearing Billabongs, I hear Dong screaming "How could you so...ugh, how could you be?" Right around the corner of the street, I get my day's shot of melon juice from Aling Maria. (Sometimes, I when I have extra money, I buy from her parefruits. Yum.) Just before I reach the footbridge, I walk past scruffy kids wasting time away inhaling solvent. "Solb na solb,"sings Dong. Past the islands, the newspapers line up with banners detailing scandals and wars, and immediately, Dong shifts to high gear with "Trapo" and "WWII". Whether its the spunk of his Yano days or two years ago's Sampol, the music fits perfectly to my start of the day (at least for the last two weeks).
It was last year, I think, that I thought of interviewing Dong Abay, and should have done so. Soliman (a.k.a. Sulayman, a.k.a. Solomon, a.k.a. Anak ni Atty.) had previously asked Dong if I could talk to him and mentioned that I had once raved about him as the Pinoy Bob Dylan. Dong chuckled. "Kulangot lang ako ni Bob Dylan." Nicely put. At least he's that; some would do anything to be part of Dylan's body. Sol introduced me once to him while he was preparing an exhibit at UP Faculty Center. I set a date for an interview, and...failed to show up. Good thing we set the interview during the opening of the exhibit -- he would not have missed me. I totally forgot about the damn interview.
Anyway. It was also Sol who months ago said Dong was planning on going abroad. Somewhere in Europe. Not to do a Jim Paredes, though, and cough out of this country, but to do what those ten million other Filipinos do everyday: work for green dough. Dong, of "State U" and "Trapo", "Perpekto" and "Ay Buhay" was going to be an OFW. Its kind of sad, and the best thing to hope for was for him to some day come back, his suitcase brimming with songs about French coños, scruffy Swiss bums, or dirty European politicos.